Tomorrow is the day

Well tomorrow is the day I officially start back to school. I did my orientation and orientation seminar yesterday. Am I nervous...uh yeah not sure if I am going to do so well with the whole seminar online thing. I sure hope I get it. Anyway I work tomorrow, then log onto my two classes...which one of them sounds great the other is basically online learning for the health science professions lol. blah...anyway I have 5 weeks to decide if this is going to be right for me or not. So that's what's going on here. Waiting to see if my manager is going to add me to the wilton staff, the hours then would be great. Well I'm off for now. I'll chat with ya soon. I'll let you know how my first day goes...guess i'll be changing the name of my blog soon...hahahah kinda funny aspiring cake lady goes into nutrition science. oh well who knows what i'll be when I grow up!

moving fast

So things are moving way faster than I thought they were going to! I am actually going to be starting school this Wednesday! Insane I know!!!! So this will put me on my path of Nutrition Science...kinda funny for someone who wants to be a cake lady, isn't it? I'm super excited with how many different directions I can go in this field and hopefully one day maybe help out people who have been through Gastric Bypass like I have to help them before during and after. Or maybe I can teach nutrition? I'd love to do that!!! ugghhhh What the hell do I want to be when i grow up? So anyway. Things are putting right along here. Had three freaking snow days last week with the kids. That was nice at first but I can't say I'm not happy they are going to school tomorrow and I am going to work!!! I am also wondering if my life will ever slow down? OMG why does it always seem like it's go go go??? Anyway I gotta get to bed but just wanted to let everyone know what's going on this way! I start school Wednesday wooot!

hmmmmm

Well I got a response into my getting certification to be a wilton method instructor for cake decorating. I guess I am now certified. lol. Also I took yet another new step and that was checking into colleges online ones to get my bachelors in nutrition. Yup I really don't want to know what I want to be when I grow up. What in the world is up with that????? I think with my background in Culinary Arts, my surgery etc, that Nutrition is a good direction for me. That and I loved my nutrition classes in JWU. But I also had the best instructor ever. So That's what's new...Guess I'll wait to see what the powers that be want for my life. I will either get a job with the store that remains nameless as a cake decorating instructor (while going to school for a BS in Nutrition) or I will just be a full time student and part time pea on at my place of employment. Either way I will keep making my cakes I like to do and will keep on trucking on my quest to figure out what the hell I wanna be!

First step

Well I'm guessing I took my first step. THe cake lady we currently have at my place of employment that teaches the classes is not flexible in her schedule. Making it hard for regular moms and other people to take her class. So I took my first step in trying to get Certified as a Wilton Method Instructor. If I can get certified with them i could possibly become an instructor where I work, which would be better hours for me anyway. I have already taken the classes but it was years ago and I'm hoping they won't hold that against me and they'll just give me time to do some refreshers. So step one I guess is done, now I just wait to see what they say. I guess if I get certified and they won't let me be an instructor at my place of business (not allowed to say the name per a form I had to sign...lol) I am hoping that I can at least teach the Wilton method out of my own house? maybe? who knows...All I can do is hope for the best!

aspiring dreams

So I am guessing this is going to be my new blog theme. I really want to be a cake designer. So I’m kind of working on that. Here and there. I make cakes for my friends, my kids and just for fun. I love to decorate cakes, cupcakes, cookies etc. For now I do it just for fun! But I really want one day to be super awesome at it and make a huge business out of it. But for now I’ll stick to being a full time mom and part time Michaels employee. I’m going to try to blog here more than my old depressing blog so hopefully it will turn out well and if it doesn’t get on to me about it and I’ll make sure to post more! I will also keep you all updated on my weight loss...it's still going well...I think I'm down like 196 lbs from 2 years ago! amazing!

hi again

Yup it's me...yup it's been awhile and yup I was thinking of my friend Anna again which brought me to my blog. I figured I hadn't caught anyone up lately. Soooooo my life now is hectic. Summer was great! Spent almost every day at the pool, the kids had swim lessons. it was just an awesome summer! School started, I started a part time job, we moved (super quick move as the house we were renting was foreclosed on) into an awesome house we love! We are not even a block from Loralie's school so we walk just about every morning.

So updates on everyone! Loralie started Kindergarten this year and is flourishing. She's already won one award for "Positive Attitude" and I seriously think that most days they couldn't have given it to a better person because she usually is super positive. She also now has purple and pink highlights in her hair...guess she takes after her momma with her funky style.

Miranda is in PreK this year and is also doing well! She is definately my DIVA! She has a fashion sense, professes her love to all the boys. Well really she loves everyone and is loves animals. (real and stuffed) she barely has any room on her bed to sleep due to the animals she sleeps with. She has also really came out of her shell. She isn't the shy little girl she used to be. And she cracks me up with how blunt she is on things...don't try to trick her because she'll tell you how it is...hmmmmm not sure where she get's that either.

And now on to Tripp. ahhhhhh Tripp, he started a 2.5 yr old preschool class, 3 days a week. It has been a blessing! Gives me time to have a part time job that I like. HOwever oh my lord the terrible 2's have been horrible with him. THere is a reason God sent him to us last as he is our most trying. He looks sweet and innocent but man he definately pushes the limit. He is smart, has a great vocabulary and potty trained at 2.5 but omg he is horrible some days. Other days he's awesome. I call him my sour patch kid, he'll do something mean and then the next min he's super sweet. no matter how rotten I love him a bunch.

My kids have been my life for 6 years now and I finally decided to take a little time for me and get back on the saddle of working. well it sucks because while I love my job, the whole childcare issue and making sure I'm making more than it costs isn't working out too well. and that's stressful. That and the fact that I really have to work around billy and the three kids schedules. Not to mention I'm Loralie's Daisy troop leader, try to volunteer with her schools PTO as much as possible and help out with the younger twos school as well. with Field trips etc. I was sad though that I had to drop my position in MOPS. I loved what I did however with everything going on and that I am working on and with I just didn't have the time and my heart wasn't into it as much. I know they will do well and it was a great way for me to meet all the wonderful friends I have now. ohhhh I've also started to decorate cakes again. I loooove to decorate cakes and had forgotten how much i really do like doing that. I made Loralie a sweet barbie cake (you know the kind where the dress is the cake?). She loved it and designed the dress herself. So My friends daughter saw the cake and deciced she wanted one just like it only using a monster high doll. Well I think it came out pretty cool and she loved it as well as the rest of the family! It was a hit...yay! So maybe just maybe I'll start doing more cakes...I'm making two cakes for our PTO's harvest party's cake walk friday.

Oh I guess you are probably wondering about my weight loss...I have lost a total of 188lbs. I'm lingeing between 133 and 135. I was bummed my insurance claim for plastic surgery on my excess belly skin was denied. That sucks but I'm going to keep trying for that and a boob lift. lol. I'm proud of my progess but still have issues with my appearence but i always have. It will get better. I have also found a therapist who has balanced out my drugs so I'm not a total bitch all the time. and I sleep really really well at night. Too bad pot isn't legal or I could just do that and it would have the same affect I think.

Billy is doing well, job is going well, he hit a deer at 70 and tore up his work van but was okay. I'm not driving him as crazy I don't think and things are great with us. We may even have a sitter lined up some so we can go on dates...lol..wooo hoooo!

So here's the skinny, kids are doing well, I'm doing well (even though with everythign else going on I'm thinking of starting up a small cake business), and billy's doing well.

Oh and I'm also thinking that maybe I'll somehow turn this into a type of food blog as well and post some different easy dinner or party recipes I do. I guess we'll see, as I need to come on here more and get my thoughts out.

Thanks to Anna's baby turning 1, I remembered it's been awhile since I posted. Anna always fussed at me about posting or lack there of. So here I am posting as I remember Anna's sweet baby and how I know she's got lots of love around her but it's going to suck to grow up without her awesome Momma. My son sleeps with a bear Anna gave me and as much as I hate that he wants to, I know he loves it and every night I have to give him and the bear a kiss, and in that sense I know that Anna in her own way is a comfort to my little one. I know Anna is watching over her family and everyone she has touched and I love that a Bon Jovi song comes on and all I think about is how much Anna loved him. So with this last little bit of sadness there is some light. Sweet Bella has turned one and is doing well and has a wonderful family to help them all through life!

Until next time which I hope will be alot sooner than last I'll chat with you all later!

Hey

I just was stopping in to check in on some of my friends blogs. I usually do it when I'm thinking of my friend Anna Calise who lost her life way too young. I think of her often and her 4 young children and it just breaks my heart that they have to continue on without her. It hurts when I think I'll never see another post on my facebook, blog, garnets site etc from her and it's been almost 4 months now. It amazes me how someone who you've only known a brief time out of your life can make such an impact on it. Anna was the one person I knew would always comment on things I wrote be it on facebook or here anywhere really. We had a very similar sense of humor mostly telling each other jokes that we knew were soooooo not politically correct but knew the other would laugh and find it hilarious because it was just a joke. We talked on the phone and she would laugh at my super southern accent and I'd joke on her how if I heard her voice in a dark alley I'd be frightened of that tough New York accent. When I heard of her passing it really made me question my faith. I had been struggling this past winter with a number of things but losing such a good person really put me over the edge. I went to bed crying the night I found out and continued asking Billy why would God do something like this. Why would he take such a devout woman away from her 4 young children and her husband who adored her? I couldn't figure it out, I couldn't understand it at all. But finally I am in a better place, I know that Anna was a believer and had Christ in her heart and although she isn't down here with her family she is with them in their hearts and watching over them. Seeing her pictures with her smiling face makes me happy. I have a bear she sent me for one of our exchanges we did over the years that says I heart NY on it. THat bear had sat on top of my hutch since I received it a few years ago. We were packing to move and I picked up that bear and I hadn't thought about it until then, that little white bear is my piece of Anna I can look at everyday (it now is on top of my tv), and be reminded of what a beautiful person Anna was inside and out. I still think of her daily and while my sadness for her loss will probably never go away, I am finally at peace with the fact that she is in heaven and no longer here with us. I do know however that Anna will forever live in my heart and the heart of so many others she touched throughout her life. She was really a wonderful person and I am blessed to have known her.

It has taken me a while to write about this as I just didn't know what to say or how to say it, I miss her, I miss our conversations, the text messages and jokes. But I know she is up above watching over all of us and looking and guiding her beautiful family!