So I'm on day 6 of the liquid diet and I'm surviving. I have to say this is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. God knows I love food and for 6 days I've given it up completely. Oh my Goodness it sucks! I miss having a grilled burger or a nice piece of grilled chicken. I have moments the past 6 days I've almost said screw these shakes I want a burger!!! And let me tell you these low carb high protein shakes are not the most wonderful thing. Thankfully I've added decaf tea to my daily intake and that helps for the flavor, but i still crave something good. Something with flavor and crunch. The first day was the worst, I was in a horrible mood and was pissy and mad at the world. The second day was better. But now it's getting bearable.
I mean I feel like I'm in the book Twilight and the human blood I crave is the one that I can't have. I want real food but it's off limits. I want to taste the garlic and meat of a wonderful burger my husband makes that's so yummy. I will be happy in 8 days when this will all be over with and I can not feel the hunger anymore. And I know I'll be even more happy when all the extra weight is gone and I can enjoy my life once again.
As the surgery draws closer I am starting to freak out some with all the what if's that run through my head. Oh they are the worst. What if I'm never able to eat real food again, what if I don't make it through the surgery in the best possible way? what if I don't make it through surgery? What if I'm not able to be a great mom to my kids because the surgery does something horrible to me? and there are so many more but I'll spare you. I try to keep thinking why I am doing this. I want to play with my kids, I want to live a long life and enjoy it, I want to be happy with the way I look, I want to show my kids a healthier way to live. So it's an up and down roller coaster right now.
All in all I'm hanging in there, it's hard but I can do it, I'm almost halfway through it now! woo hoo! Just one more week and I'll be done with the horrid hunger i feel. Everything is in order now, all of our Christmas presents are bought, our Christmas decorations are up and now we just have some stuff to ship off, and we'll be done. I have Mops Monday and it's going to be a busy fun one, I have a cookie/ornament exchange Friday night (getting some cookies for billy and the girl at the hotel), and a party to go to Saturday afternoon. Sunday we leave to stay the night in Richmond and Monday the 15th i have my surgery, not sure what time. They are suppose to call me Friday to let me know for sure of the time. I'm excited and i know this is going to be great. I know God will help guide the surgeons hands for a successful surgery. This is going to be great in a few months! I just know it!!!
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Monday, December 1, 2008
Really Quick
Well the countdown is on...two weeks from today is my surgery. It's coming up so quick!!! I'm starting to freak out! But I know it'll be okay. So today is just a little something funny. I just wanted to show you a cute thing I did so i hope you enjoy! http://elfyourself.jibjab.com/view/kZGzWUOHNrLwCRFn
I'll post more later about our Thanksgiving as it was great!
I'll post more later about our Thanksgiving as it was great!
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Pre Op
So my preop was today. I had to go to a two hour class which basically stated everything that was in the book that we had to read and take a quiz on. It was pretty cool though getting to hang out all day with people who are having the same surgery. So after class I went to my reg appt to do the preop crap of getting weighed (yuck), blood pressure, making sure you aren't psycho etc. So I was told to try to lose 30 lbs before surgery, and they wouldn't cancel if I only lost 25, so on to the dreaded effing scale, and i put all my crap down, while cursing the two scales i have at home, for always giving me two readings. So I stood on the scale and watched that bastard go up and up. Son of a bitch I lost not 30lbs but 33 lbs!!!! woooo freaking whooooo!!!! So the nurse practitioner said wooo hooo too and said well now you have a buffer for your thanksgiving dinner!!!
So got done with them telling me i could die, i could have ulcers, i could have no complications etc. So i signed everything away and off I went to anesthia and lab...what fun what fun. So they took like 7 vials of blood and pee in a cup and I went on to get an ekg and asked a million more questions about if i'm on any drugs etc...same questions i have already answered 5 times but at least they are concerned enough to ask...maybe i do look psycho...as they asked me that a ton...lol...
I was also told my Gall bladder will be taken out at the same time due to the hellicaious meteors in my gallbladder...so I'm killing two birds with one stone...woot!
so anyway that was my day! I'm glad i lost my goal and then some! I start my all liquids on dec 1st...boo but it's worth it! i can do it...My surgery is dec 15th and I'll find out the friday before when it is exactly...yippee.
So got done with them telling me i could die, i could have ulcers, i could have no complications etc. So i signed everything away and off I went to anesthia and lab...what fun what fun. So they took like 7 vials of blood and pee in a cup and I went on to get an ekg and asked a million more questions about if i'm on any drugs etc...same questions i have already answered 5 times but at least they are concerned enough to ask...maybe i do look psycho...as they asked me that a ton...lol...
I was also told my Gall bladder will be taken out at the same time due to the hellicaious meteors in my gallbladder...so I'm killing two birds with one stone...woot!
so anyway that was my day! I'm glad i lost my goal and then some! I start my all liquids on dec 1st...boo but it's worth it! i can do it...My surgery is dec 15th and I'll find out the friday before when it is exactly...yippee.
Monday, November 17, 2008
Monday, Monday
So I'm a week away from my preop and 28 days from surgery. The girls are doing well. Tripp is doing great. We are all hanging in there and i'm excited about my surgery...I'm getting in the Christmas shopping mode, slowly buying stuff for the kids and everyone else in the family. I can't wait for Black Friday so I can hook up on some good deals!
Everything right now is going pretty good and I'll update more later when something eventful happens...lol
Everything right now is going pretty good and I'll update more later when something eventful happens...lol
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Pushed back
Well My surgery date got pushed back to Dec 15th due to the surgeon is going to be out of town. So now my preop is Nov 27th, liquid diet starts Dec 1st and Surgery will be bright and early Dec 15th. Well at least now I get to eat Thanksgiving dinner. I'm a little sad it has been pushed back. It means I'm going to be in more pain for Christmas which sucks. But it also gives me a little more time to try to knock some more of the weight off before surgery. So I just wanted to give a surgery update. I'll update about our mini vacation later. I'm off to go wallow in self pity now. :( lol
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Election (strong republican politial views)
Good Lord I will be so glad when this election is over! Don't get me wrong I'm right there with getting my political point out, but for some reason this freaking election is bringing out the crazies. People stealing signs, defacing property and yesterday people went into a Republican office here and assaulted two people in there. WTH. We all have a right to say what we want, have our own views and be free thinkers! I mean there has been a million times this election I've wanted to say to people "Get your head out of your ass and quit letting Obama blow smoke up your ass". Sure he's a very good speaker but how much do you really know about him and how he will run things? I mean sure we know that he's young and some find him hot, but shit some found Bill Clinton Sexy! Gross! To me Obama seems like one of the sea sirens his voice is so smooth and unaltered however when we elect him I worry he will bring us to our demise. I mean why would he be reading the book "A post America World"? If you don't believe me I'll find a pic and post it if I have to. Another problem I have issue with is how can you vote for someone who keeps friends like the ones he has? I mean a known terrorist and a racist? seriously! They say said terrorist isn't one anymore he is a professor, wth he said they didn't bomb enough and should have bombed more. Yeah sounds like he's a stand up citizen! And the man who led him on his spiritual journey through life said some of the most horrid racist things during his sermons. How can you still vote for someone who associates himself with these people. Another reason I can't vote for Obama is the fact of late term abortion and the fact that he voted against helping the babies that try to survive being aborted so late. The babies that come out alive that the medical staff can't legally help because it's against the law according to what Obama voted for. I mean that is a precious child that could have lived and someone would want to adopt, to love, to care for. There are so many other reasons I wouldn't vote for Obama but these are just a few. I just don't know how people can vote for someone like this? I mean WTH are people thinking.
I have some friends moms themselves that say they won't vote for McCain because of Palin. Not because she doesn't have the knowledge to do the job but because they feel she should be home with her kids. OMG are you freaking kidding me! I mean seriously it's a double standard. if Sarah Palin was a man this shit that's being said by many wouldn't even be brought up. I mean how many VP candidates have had people look into how much they spent on their wardrobe? Or said "his" daughter got pregnant how's he going to run the country? Oh because she's a woman it gets thrown in the mix of reasons she's not qualified. I told billy after a debate people were going to be talking her clothing, I even went as far to say that wow I would have worn flats if i had to stand in one place that long. To which Billy said "I wonder why she didn't" I said "because everyone would have been like "can you believe she wore FLATS!!!!" You know I really though this we had grown as women but there are some that are just keeping us back in the old ages of the woman should stay at home, the woman has to wear heals, the woman isn't intelligent enough to run a country. I mean people were even talking about what Hillary Clinton was wearing! I mean how many times did she joked on about her suits. I know Sarah Palin is new to this but shit so is Obama! How can you even say she's not experienced enough without saying Obama doesn't have enough experience? I feel if she gets in she will bring a fresh mind to our Government.
So all I'm asking is please take a second to think about who you are voting for. and why you are voting for them. Don't vote because your mind has been clouded by the way he speaks, think about what he really stands for. I mean he says "Change" but what is he really going to Change? and is this "Change" really going to be for the good? I don't think so. So first go out there and vote! Second, Please please please think about why you are voting for the person, I mean don't vote for or against someone just because of their race or sex. Vote for the person you think will pass along your views the best. Oh and by the way I don't belong to any particular party but this time I will be voting Republican as I feel they best say/express my views. Oh and all this racial and sexist bullshit needs to stop we are freaking past that. We are all Americans!!!!
Oh and if your going to leave a comment please say who you are...good or bad as I like all feed back but hate it when you can't say who you are, it makes me think you don't really believing the comment you are leaving.
I have some friends moms themselves that say they won't vote for McCain because of Palin. Not because she doesn't have the knowledge to do the job but because they feel she should be home with her kids. OMG are you freaking kidding me! I mean seriously it's a double standard. if Sarah Palin was a man this shit that's being said by many wouldn't even be brought up. I mean how many VP candidates have had people look into how much they spent on their wardrobe? Or said "his" daughter got pregnant how's he going to run the country? Oh because she's a woman it gets thrown in the mix of reasons she's not qualified. I told billy after a debate people were going to be talking her clothing, I even went as far to say that wow I would have worn flats if i had to stand in one place that long. To which Billy said "I wonder why she didn't" I said "because everyone would have been like "can you believe she wore FLATS!!!!" You know I really though this we had grown as women but there are some that are just keeping us back in the old ages of the woman should stay at home, the woman has to wear heals, the woman isn't intelligent enough to run a country. I mean people were even talking about what Hillary Clinton was wearing! I mean how many times did she joked on about her suits. I know Sarah Palin is new to this but shit so is Obama! How can you even say she's not experienced enough without saying Obama doesn't have enough experience? I feel if she gets in she will bring a fresh mind to our Government.
So all I'm asking is please take a second to think about who you are voting for. and why you are voting for them. Don't vote because your mind has been clouded by the way he speaks, think about what he really stands for. I mean he says "Change" but what is he really going to Change? and is this "Change" really going to be for the good? I don't think so. So first go out there and vote! Second, Please please please think about why you are voting for the person, I mean don't vote for or against someone just because of their race or sex. Vote for the person you think will pass along your views the best. Oh and by the way I don't belong to any particular party but this time I will be voting Republican as I feel they best say/express my views. Oh and all this racial and sexist bullshit needs to stop we are freaking past that. We are all Americans!!!!
Oh and if your going to leave a comment please say who you are...good or bad as I like all feed back but hate it when you can't say who you are, it makes me think you don't really believing the comment you are leaving.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
What a great day!
So yesterday was Lore's 4th Birthday. Well we didn't celebrate until today. I mean we told her her bday was yesterday and told her happy birthday day etc...she was super excited to be four! So yesterday I did most of the cooking and billy and I did the cleaning and rearranged our living room and dining room to accomidate the 20+people we were fitting in our kinda small house.
So anyway Today started and was a whirlwind from the get go. I got up, had coffee, left for Walmart. Well I had to break shitty on the cake people for trying to make me wait longer than I was going to (they screwed something up). Anyway I got it handled and was back home by 10am. Shortly after I got here an old friend and her daughter showed up and and it was wonderful to see them. They helped entertain the kids and set up. Then my mom showed up with Richard and my aunt and her "friend". So it was already becoming a madhouse...lol. It was great and Lore was beyond excited!!! More people showed up and it got more crazy and more fun. Old friends I haven't seen since I was 25 but kept up with online came and that was awesome! Lore loved everyone and is loving meeting all of these new people here. Believe it or not Miranda is even getting more sociable!!! It's great. However Tripp I guess has hit a momma or daddy only stage. OMG it's driving me nuts. So everyone ate, everyone sang to Lore which she just thought was the best thing ever! Then it was time for presents! Well she made out with some awesome stuff and I have to say billy and I did great getting her the leapster 2 she has played with it ever since we opened it! She loves it. And any card that had money in it she took it out and put it straight in her piggy bank!
People started filing out and thinking things were winding down and another of my uncles and aunt came over to eat hang out, So I called my dad and told him he had to come up and have some coffee with us, so he did. I think at about 6:30 everyone was finally gone and we could clean and relax a little. Loralie proceeded to say "this is the best birthday party ever". It makes me so happy to be back here! For the kids to really get to know all of their family and extended family make it so great! Don't get me wrong I had to explain to lore why her usual party go'ers weren't coming several times and she was a little bummed but I think she still had a great time! So anyway! All in all it was the best day ever for a 4 year old...lol! And it was a highly awesome day for me and billy! Miranda had a blast and had plenty of peeps to swing her and play with her so she was super happy! But the best part is seeing all the people who've never met my kids just be here to love on them and make the party awesome for Loralie. It also makes my day to see how Loralie and Miranda is with my dad (their papaw). They love him soooo much and it's so great to see it. I love watching them with him, how if he moves they have to follow him around and just keep up with him. My friends back in Wichita would not believe how much Miranda has came out of her shell. She is a totally different person.
So I just wanted to share my awesome day of birthday celebration and reunions of really great friends! Life is good, I'm totally blessed to have such awesome friends near and far! I love you all and the ones that are far away I miss you a ton! I'll be one hawt biotch when I come back to visit ya'll! I'm gonna make sure I come when I can sub for bunco! lol or at least crash it! peace out homies! I love you all!
So anyway Today started and was a whirlwind from the get go. I got up, had coffee, left for Walmart. Well I had to break shitty on the cake people for trying to make me wait longer than I was going to (they screwed something up). Anyway I got it handled and was back home by 10am. Shortly after I got here an old friend and her daughter showed up and and it was wonderful to see them. They helped entertain the kids and set up. Then my mom showed up with Richard and my aunt and her "friend". So it was already becoming a madhouse...lol. It was great and Lore was beyond excited!!! More people showed up and it got more crazy and more fun. Old friends I haven't seen since I was 25 but kept up with online came and that was awesome! Lore loved everyone and is loving meeting all of these new people here. Believe it or not Miranda is even getting more sociable!!! It's great. However Tripp I guess has hit a momma or daddy only stage. OMG it's driving me nuts. So everyone ate, everyone sang to Lore which she just thought was the best thing ever! Then it was time for presents! Well she made out with some awesome stuff and I have to say billy and I did great getting her the leapster 2 she has played with it ever since we opened it! She loves it. And any card that had money in it she took it out and put it straight in her piggy bank!
People started filing out and thinking things were winding down and another of my uncles and aunt came over to eat hang out, So I called my dad and told him he had to come up and have some coffee with us, so he did. I think at about 6:30 everyone was finally gone and we could clean and relax a little. Loralie proceeded to say "this is the best birthday party ever". It makes me so happy to be back here! For the kids to really get to know all of their family and extended family make it so great! Don't get me wrong I had to explain to lore why her usual party go'ers weren't coming several times and she was a little bummed but I think she still had a great time! So anyway! All in all it was the best day ever for a 4 year old...lol! And it was a highly awesome day for me and billy! Miranda had a blast and had plenty of peeps to swing her and play with her so she was super happy! But the best part is seeing all the people who've never met my kids just be here to love on them and make the party awesome for Loralie. It also makes my day to see how Loralie and Miranda is with my dad (their papaw). They love him soooo much and it's so great to see it. I love watching them with him, how if he moves they have to follow him around and just keep up with him. My friends back in Wichita would not believe how much Miranda has came out of her shell. She is a totally different person.
So I just wanted to share my awesome day of birthday celebration and reunions of really great friends! Life is good, I'm totally blessed to have such awesome friends near and far! I love you all and the ones that are far away I miss you a ton! I'll be one hawt biotch when I come back to visit ya'll! I'm gonna make sure I come when I can sub for bunco! lol or at least crash it! peace out homies! I love you all!
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